
After my guitar lesson, Saturday, I had lunch with my cousin. I've been helping him with his college application essay and I have been trying to encourage him in what he wants to pursue, since many in my family have doubts about the practicality of his path. I've been there. My family is almost rigidly blue collar and if someone wants to do something that doesn't require a "useful" or needed skill, then it lacks importance and you're stupid. (I'm very proud of my blue-collar background, btw. Hard, honest work is something to be praised.)
His brother went to a prestigious university and majored in what he thought he should, because everyone influencing said he should. He didn't even finish the first semester. He's artistic and creative. His major was anything but.
In his high school graduation card I wrote that he should always follow what is in his heart and to just always do his best, then that way, he would never be disappointed in himself. I knew he had a lot of pressure on him.
Now, he is in a different college, in Philly, studying more artistic ventures and how the business end is connected to them. He's happy, and that's what is important.
When I was sitting with his little brother, yesterday, I pulled out three pictures of what I was like before he was born.
It made me think about all the decisions and paths I've taken the past 20 or so years. They may not have always turned out as I had hoped or thought they would, but I have no regrets. I wouldn't be who I am if I didn't follow my dreams, whims, and heart.
No one died because of my actions and decisions, no one's life was screwed up, and even though things didn't always go right, I always used them as stepping stones to something else.
I hope my cousin realizes the importance of that as he begins to navigate adulthood.
I think we worry too much about absolute success and not enough about enjoying our lives and just learning from our experiences. You just have to say, "This is how it is," and go forward.
There is beauty to be found in imperfection.